Earlier this week, (my inner dialogue was unhappy)…
I feel like I’m standing still, that nothing is changing.
I feel like I am not where I think I should be by now – 36 yrs old, no college degree, no career.
I feel like I’m not being productive, that somehow I am failing at life, because I can’t see any measurable amount of productivity or success.
I feel more frustrated than ever!
Yesterday, (during a FaceTime call with my sister)…
“I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. I’m not doing anything productive or important. I’m a failure.”
whine, whine, complain, whine some more
I was stuck in a spin – worrying about the future, feeling regret about the past, failing to see and appreciate my life as it is right now. I was full of complaints, stuck inside my own drama, and making myself miserable. I was spiraling downward toward depression.
Here is what she said to me: “Be in your life, and enjoy the shit out of it.”
**pile drive to the faaace**
Oh yeah… Be Present. Express Gratitude.
I was spinning around with my drama, couldn’t find my way out, and the helpful stuff I usually whip out when someone needs encouragement completely vanished from my awareness. I couldn’t hear my heart, because I was stuck in my mind.
Gratitude is the opposite of complaining. There is no way I can be nasty and complainy when I’m looking for things to be grateful for. Gratitude helps me reframe the way I think about my life, and brings me up out of the griminess of my experience. Gratitude helps my soul find it’s wings.
My awareness must be here, now, in THIS moment – not stressing about the future, regretting the past, wishing things were different or people would change.
“Be in your life and enjoy the shit out of it!”
Today, I am thankful to listen to my co-worker’s stories, express interest in their lives, and make them feel important. Many times I don’t stop long enough to connect with other people, whether I am at work, at the grocery store, or at a family reunion. My body is present, but my mind is off in the distance. I become so caught up in my story – my regrets, anger, worries, fear – that I fail at being present in my own life. My life becomes all about me – a future me I am anxious about, or a past me I am ashamed of.
Human beings are fascinating creatures, full of endless creative potential, and capable of withstanding tremendous pain only to emerge from the ashes stronger and more resilient than ever. I love listening to or reading about other people’s lives. I get caught up in their stories of pain and pleasure, devastation and triumph. When people finally realize they possess immense creative power, they take responsibility for their thoughts and emotions and respond in a new way. They create new patterns of behavior, and transform their lives forever.
Do you want to know what makes my heart swell to bursting, chokes me up, and brings tears to my eyes?
It is witnessing the moment someone wakes-up to their own heart – their authentic self – and realizes that everything they felt they lacked in life and as a person has been theirs the entire time – the moment when someone feels whole, complete, and realizes they have been the entire time.
It’s so fantastic
You humans are amazing! And I have much love for you and your journey.
Let’s all begin practicing gratitude in our lives today. Start your own gratitude ritual, and be consistent. It doesn’t require a huge time commitment. You can do it anywhere, anytime. It is as simple as being aware of yourself – your environment and emotions – and finding something to be thankful for in every moment. It can be a big thing or a small thing – as long as it moves your heart, makes you feel alive, challenges your perspective, or causes you to contemplate a new way of being in the world – it counts!
If you are feeling overwhelmed about this process – about where to start or how to do it – please join my Facebook Gratitude Group here.
Also, “Like” and “Follow” my Soul Wings Yoga Facebook page here and keep the good vibes going!
P.S. I recently listened to this podcast interview with author Susan David about her book, “Emotional Agility” and it was awesome! Give it a listen.